So things have gone from bad, to worse. My husband is now a hallucinating drunk that strives to embarrass me in front of our friends. He now wont let me use his phone to call my own mother. He screens the incoming calls for me via voice mail. He is working to further isolate me than what i already am. It's scary.
Last week, out of 7 days 3 of those he came home completely hammered. I'm so tired of the continuously blatant disrespect that is shown to me by my "husband".. The reasons for leaving, or even for staying for that matter, are all becoming moot points. They're all falling away as minor details now. The biggest question now is do I respect myself enough to stop this treatment? Do I have such little self-respect that i just allow someone that CLAIMS they love me to treat me like dirt? Do I love myself more than him? Do I even love him anymore? Do I love my child more than my husband and can I show her that it's not okay to let people treat you like trash?
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